Some of you may remember that way back when Team Shrinking Jeans was formed, that I was a part of it. Also, if you know me at all, then you know that there is no part of running that I like. Every single minute feels like pure torture to me, but I decided to suck it up and just do it. I wanted to do it. To be a part of something big.
What I didn’t anticipate was that I would have such a hard time with the fundraising part. Suddenly, I was approaching time to make a decision to commit to it and risk having to pay more money than I have to make up for what I couldn’t raise or to drop out. I dropped out.
My parents raised me to finish what I started. Even though I knew that I couldn’t take the risk to put myself in that big of a financial hole, I felt so bad. I felt like I had let everyone down. I felt like I was a disappointment. I felt like a quitter. This bothered me so much that the thought of running made me want to vomit. I tried once or twice to run at the gym, and every single time my foot hit the treadmill all I could think about was the fact that I dropped off the team.
I made my peace with dropping off the team in a few weeks, but I still couldn’t bring myself to run. I didn’t want to. I didn’t like it enough to give it a try again. But at the same time I found myself becoming bored with my old work outs. I could easily feel bad those old bad habits knocking on the door.
I was beginning to fall.
I know what you’re thinking. Why didn’t you say something? We would have helped you get back on track? Well, this was something I was working through on my own and even though you may not have known it, some of you did help me. And you kept me from falling.
Those of you who have entered the category of triathlete intrigue me. I’ve told Christie O. before that she makes me want to want to do a triathlon. But the problem with triathlons is that you have to run (ha), and I don’t have easy access to a pool. BUT, I have found myself kind of wanting to try cycling. Actually it’s been tugging at me for a while now. And, not only is it tugging at me, I THINK I can be good at it. Maybe.
So today, I went shopping after work and bought a helmet (it’s purdy) and some things to spruce up my old trusty bike. (Before and after pictures will come later.) And hopefully soon, I’ll give cycling a try.
I was losing my love for fitness, and, for a bit, I wasn’t quite sure how to handle it or what to do about it, but now I’m excited about the idea of trying something new, and I’m really looking forward to the love that some of you have found with running. It’s there…I can feel it.
If you feel old habits lurking or you feel yourself beginning to fall, find something that you’d like to try and TRY IT. Give something new a shot and fall in love with fitness again.
P.S. Team Shrinking Jeans…I am SO SO SO very proud of you!! Terffic job meeting your goal!
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Category: April, Fitness Friday