I’m sure you have seen the hashtag on social media – #thestruggleisreal . It’s been around for a while and it has so many different meanings but for me lately it has been all encompassing. Everything from my eating habits to my exercise habits. About the only thing I have been doing well is the lack of soda in my life! (#SJNoSoda) Yes, I have gone 31 days without soda now. Most days it is no longer an issue for me. But sometimes, like this past Monday when I didn’t feel well and just wanted my normal comforts, it is difficult to stay consistent on this journey of healthy living. Y’all, the struggle was real!! I was so close to ordering that large coke, but I was strong and did not do it. I know that my body appreciated me not succumbing to the desire of drinking that coke and I didn’t have to worry about breaking the addictive habit AGAIN.
Anywho…..We have been without a scale in our household for several months. Not having the scale helped me live in denial a bit longer. If I couldn’t weigh myself, then I could say that I was eating and exercising properly and there wouldn’t really be any “proof” that I wasn’t. I’m telling you, #thestruggleisreal! Denial has been in my life a bit too long! I finally bought a new bathroom scale so I can really start tracking my weight and my progress (or lack thereof) again. I got on the scale on Monday morning and, although I wasn’t thrilled with the number on the scale I wasn’t surprised, and I was glad that my weight had not crept up more than it had.
Recently I was looking through a bunch of old pictures and I was able to see some of the transformations that I have made over the years. I may not be where I want to be yet, but I am in a much better place than I was 5 or 6 years ago. It was a nice reminder to see where I was and where I want to be again.
So, this month of October my focus is going to be on tracking my calories and working out on a consistent basis. I feel as though I need to start slow and build up, because it’s been so long since I have done anything more than walk. I can walk for miles and miles but give me some weights or yoga poses and I feel lost. This will be my month to get past this feeling and feel more confident with weights and yoga. I’m going to start with some DVD’s that I bought and dust off the WiiFit again! Yep, the WiiFit is always a good place for me to start. It’s fun and I can change things up and do things with my son! I am also going to get up early each morning to do this because this is the only time of the day where I can almost guarantee no interruptions! I know that this will be a struggle for me, but working out consistently is the most important thing I can do to see improvement weekly. It is also part of my overall plan for the year….the year I have determined to be different at the end of the year than I was at the beginning of it. I only have three months left in this year to make a difference, and I will!! The struggle is real but it won’t stop me!!
As of now, I am just a few pounds less than I was at the beginning of this year. By December 31st I want to have that number significantly less, but without determination and consistency it won’t happen. I have to face the struggles and knock them back to be able to achieve my goals. I have to get up each and every morning and ask myself who will win, the struggle or my determination? Do I want to feel good in the moment and eat foods that aren’t properly fueling my body, or do I want to feel good at the end of the day because I have fed myself the foods that my body needs? Do I want to sleep late and miss a work out or do I want to get up and exercise early so that nothing can stop me?
Yes, #thestruggleisreal for me, but it won’t stop me from reaching my goals!!