Sometimes when I am struggling with eating right, exercising right, and making all the right choices, I get down on myself and ask, “WHY? Why, after 5 1/2 years, am I still trying to lose weight? Why after all this time of reading blogs don’t I have it together? Why am I not on the other side of this journey and in maintenance mode, instead of weight loss mode?” And then I have the realization that the biggest reason, other than some medical issues that I have under control now, is LAZY! I get lazy. Instead of continuing to exercise and watch the portions I’m consuming, I throw caution (or in this case my life) to the wind and I throw away my hard work.
For the majority of this year, I have used the excuse of stress to not exercise and not eat properly. I followed the Whole30 plan at the beginning of the year and had great success with it. I felt better than I have in years. I lost weight. I started seeing a waistline again. I ate veggies at every meal, instead of just an occasional veggie. I learned to prepare meals that worked for my crazy schedule and I ate out so occasionally that we actually saved some money. Then, stress hit and I went back to my old ways with the exception of gluten. After following the Whole30 plan, I realized that gluten and I don’t play well together, so I haven’t had any since the beginning of this year.
Earlier this week, I realized that I need to stop making excuses and do something… even if it’s just going back to the basics of tracking calories on My Fitness Pal and using my Wii Fit stepper while watching TV late at night. Wednesday evening after my son went to bed, I pulled out the Wii Fit, found the sensor, put fresh batteries in the board, and fired up the thirty minute “Free Step” and watched mindless TV for thirty minutes, while getting some movement in. My little Mii character was sadly asleep for so long. While I was stepping, I thought back to when I had first started working on my weight loss. I had started by doing nothing more than 45 minutes of exercising with the Wii Fit. I worked up to being able to step for 30 minutes. I used the hula-hoop game to work my abdominal muscles. I used the yoga games to stretch. It was simple and fun and I lost weight… BECAUSE I WAS DOING SOMETHING EVERY DAY!!
Somewhere along the way I stopped using the Wii Fit and started using DVDs and some weights and incorporated other cardio into my days. Until I didn’t.
I have to focus on getting back to where I want to be, both in my head and in my body. My word of the year is “determined” and I haven’t lost that desire, even if it appears that I did. I am once again determined that I will achieve my goals for health and fitness. I am determined that I won’t let stress sideline me. I am determined to focus on eating the way my body wants to be fed. I am determined that I will be the happiest and healthiest woman I can be.
I have also decided that on January 1, I am going to follow Whole30 again, and possibly even a Whole100. I know a lot of people who have followed it for 100 days and feel better than ever. They have completely changed their lives because of the way they ate for those 100 days. I need to learn to deal with stress in a better way, and I think following the Whole30 plan will help be beneficial.
I am also a part of the Sisterhood’s KrowdFit KREW and I have high hopes of winning some money! Are you signed up to be part of the KREW? You should…It’s such a fun way to kick some booty in the new year and get us focused on being as healthy as possible over the next couple of weeks!
I’m off to spend the day with my birthday boy who is turning TWELVE today, so have a healthy, happy Saturday!!!