I’ve been sitting here trying to think of the right words to say, and I realize I have nothing. The challenge has been nothing but a struggle for me, and I just am not sure what to say.
I knew going in that this time of year is hard for me. I can stay focused on weight loss from January through June. Then July hits, and I become a little more social. Then September hits, and can anyone say football? Then we get through October and November is here and it’s holidays, holidays, holidays.
The exact same thing happened for me last year. But the difference in last year and this year is my exercise. Last year at this time, I was working out 6 times a week, an hour a day. This year? Not so much.
One day when I was doing my Chalean Extreme work out, I felt a sharp, shooting pain in my elbow. So, I stopped those work outs to give my elbow time to heal. So, I joined in the EA Sports Active challenge and it’s a great work out, but I went from burning up to 600 calories a work out to around 150.
The problem with that is, I didn’t change my eating. See, I was eating food to fuel a 600 calorie burn. So, the solution was to cut out a snack, right? Right. My body was SO mad at me. It’s been on such a strict eating schedule for almost two years that it just didn’t know what to do when it “skipped” a meal time.
So then I got frustrated, and for a few days, I said screw it. THEN I got on the scales.
I’m embarrassed to say how much weight I gained, but let me assure you that it was yet another eye opener. I was seriously close to getting out of control, and that is not something I will ever let happen again.
Like so many of you I feel like I have so much going on that I sometimes don’t have time to think. When I began my weight loss journey, I had TONS of time, so all I did was work out. Now, that’s not the case. I love my life right now, and I’m determined to figure it all out. I know I will. So, I’m working now to find balance. Balance with my work outs, balance with my food, balance with my social life for right now, and balance with blogging.
Every day so far since Sunday. (Okay, Monday I walked because my shepherd had a playdate with a new dog, but we walked fast and for 3 miles, so that’s something right?) It’s not the hour work outs, that I used to do, but finally I’ve gotten my body used to eating a little less. And I’m enjoying running. (What the hell?!) So, I’m happy to say that this week, I’m back down to 145.4. Yes, that’s up for the challenge, but TRUST me when I say it’s down from last week.
Balance, April. Just focus on balance. I’ll get there.