Crooked Eyebrow » 2010 » January


I am trying so very hard to get rid of my old habits and bring in healthier new ones. I am trying, but am having such a hard time.

My maternity leave is over in 10 days and I am sick about it. I will be running on about 4 hours asleep a day, working full time and in the process to better myself.  At this point with a infant I am struggling just trying to find time to use the restroom and eat a meal sitting down.  Finger foods (junk) have become my staple and my only exercise has been bouncing a baby. No progress has been made so far. Fail. I want to win, dammit.

I’ m worried about failing, failing in front of so many readers and fellow sister(bros) here. So I know I am just having a weak moment but I know that some other people may be having them too and for different reasons.

I do realize that now is the time. It is time to put my old eating and lifestyle habits to rest. It’s a new decade and I am wanting a new me. A new healthier, stronger me. Not just for myself, but for my family as well.

Now I have to make a plan.  Have you made your plan, your re-think your shrink plan?

Small steps for me for right now:

1) drink water. While breastfeeding, I need to be drinking way more than I am right now.No more delicious yummy bottled Mexican cokes.

2) When going back to work in a week,  I need and have to plan my lunches so I am not tempted by the ease of a drive thru. My lunch break will be taken up with pumping, so I need to have my lunches planned and packed since I will be short on time.

3) By the end of this week I am hoping to dig out my treadmill and start walking. In 2 weeks I want to start the couch to 5k program. As much as I would love to be doing the half marathon along side my shrinking jeans family, my body is just not ready.

By starting newer or just plain healthier habits I am hoping to  be able to look at myself in the mirror and love what I see staring back at me. I have horrible self-esteem and poor body image. It is my goal in 2010 to love and accept what I see. My biggest fear is to pass this onto my children. For the love of everything good in this world, let them accept and love themselves for everything they are.

So here I go, trying one day at a time. Hoping to love and accept the new…