March 27, 2010 By thea
Alrighty folks, truth time.
I’m not doing my 10k training. It’s on my to-do list every day. But I’m not doing it.
And you wanna know why?
I DON’T LIKE RUNNING!!!
There. I said it. Woo. I feel better. But only slightly. Because I mostly feel like a loser.
I wanted to like running. I really did. I tried. But I always look at it with dread. It causes me more stress than relieves it. Maybe I’m just a short distance runner and will never get beyond a 5k. I don’t know.
They say that you need to find something you love if you are going to stick with it. And I don’t love running.
But I’ve set goals. And I’ve signed up for races. And I’ve bought swimsuits for triathlons and that means running.
I feel like a big lump of goo. I’m not sure where to go from here.
I feel like a quitter. And I feel like I’m letting people down. And I feel like a quitter. And a whiner. And a quitter.
I’m not sure what I love. I can’t ever remember doing any physical activity and loving it.
So what do I do? Where do I go from here?
Ugh.