Facing an Exercise Identity Crisis – The Shrinking Jeans of Thea


March 27, 2010 By thea

Alrighty folks, truth time.

I’m not doing my 10k training. It’s on my to-do list every day.  But I’m not doing it.

And you wanna know why?


There.  I said it.  Woo.  I feel better.  But only slightly. Because I mostly feel like a loser.

I wanted to like running.  I really did.  I tried.  But I always look at it with dread.  It causes me more stress than relieves it.  Maybe I’m just a short distance runner and will never get beyond a 5k.  I don’t know.

They say that you need to find something you love if  you are going to stick with it.  And I don’t love running.

But I’ve set goals.  And I’ve signed up for races.  And I’ve bought swimsuits for triathlons and that means running.

I feel like a big lump of goo.  I’m not sure where to go from here.

I feel like a quitter.  And I feel like I’m letting people down. And I feel like a quitter. And a whiner. And a quitter.

I’m not sure what I love.  I can’t ever remember doing any physical activity and loving it.

So what do I do? Where do I go from here?