Progress – The Shrinking Jeans of Christy


October 21, 2010 By Christy

Yesterday I went to boot camp. Today I ran.

It has been 2 weeks since my car accident. ONLY two weeks. It really seems like a lifetime ago, and I feel like I’ve gained a whole new life. It’s strange. My heart is fine. My body is fine. My mind? It’s still reeling.

Reeling with the ‘what might have beens’.

I looked in the newspaper this week and realized that the obituaries of me and my children might have been there. That was hard.

I am getting past everything though. I am okay.

Today, my biggest hurdle was running. I am supposed to run a 1/2 marathon in a little more than 3 weeks. I have not run in 2.5 weeks, and this part of my training is the important part. Not that all of it isn’t important, but this is the big mileage. The mileage that’s going to get me across the finish line. The mileage I am so far behind on.

I was ready to say screw it. (Okay, really, fuck it.) I can’t do this. There is no way I can catch up on my training and make it.

And then I talked to Lisa. My dear, sweet friend Lisa, who while giving me a huge pep talk on the phone this morning, was in the midst of her 10 mile long run for the week. Yeah, that’s a real friend there, folks.

She basically told me to get off my ass and run. Run today. Don’t think about the rest of it. The big picture. Just run today and see how I feel.

So I ran. I ran 3.4 miles, and I felt amazing. Strong. Capable.

My head just needed that feeling of running to clear out the fears. My heart needed to pound with some real effort. My feet needed to hit the pavement over and over, fast.

I can do it. It might not be how I envisioned it, but I will cross that finish line on November 14th and collect my medal. Because I have really earned it.