Oh, is it confession day? Really? Crap. – The Shrinking Jeans of Melissa


January 18, 2011 By Lissa

Let’s start this off by tackling Mel’s question on reality TV…

Yes, I love to love it. I watch reality TV. My favorites?

  • Survivor. Hell, I even applied this month.
  • Big Brother.
  • America’s Next Top Model.
  • So You Think You Can Dance. Love, love, love this one.
  • I occasionally watch The Biggest Loser.

That’s about it.

Now for the dirty truth.

My inner sugar-addict has reclaimed control of my life. I shushed that bitch for 6 weeks in November and December and it was fantastic. FAN-FREAKIN-TASTIC. I felt good, I lost more weight than I have in years. So, why oh why, have I let her back in? I know what I need to do. I know what I want to do. I just cannot let the sugar go. I start out every day doing good. But once the afternoon hits, that is all thrown out the window. I annoy the shit out of myself.

My friend Karena gave me the push I needed last time around, so I have enlisted her help once again.

I made myself go to the gym this morning after 10 days off. It felt amazing. I even verbally committed to doing Zumba next Tuesday after my cardio class. I am *scared* of Zumba. I woke up this past weekend and called my husband to tell him about my horrifying Zumba nightmare. It’s that bad. This is BIG for me, people. So scary.

I am getting super-excited for team: shrinking jeans and training for the SD 1/2 again. Only I’m not really excited about running. I’m not going to lie… I’ve just never really gotten that dreamy runner’s high that so many others write of. Plus, I’m worried I will get burnt out. I am, however, excited about having a plan and a schedule and sticking to it.

I’m counting on each one of you to give me a big kick-in-the-ass right now. K, thanks.