Under Control – Christie O


February 23, 2011 By christieo

I didn’t lose much weight for this challenge (if any), I did lose a whopping .5 this week but that’s not the story of this challenge.

From my posts, you’ll probably have read about all my struggles. As excited as I was to start this year off right, I struggled through my choices, my motivation and my willpower. The scale climbed and my motivation waned.

I needed an electric shock collar.

Finally, though, through searching, through friends, through goals, I’m under control. I never knew how difficult it would be to diligently maintain. I’ve always known what it is to get out of control, but I’ve never known the effort it takes to reign it in.

Daily choices that can change minute to minute with whatever life throws at you.

I’m back in the gym, I’m back to my workouts and now, I am not letting food control me. I’m meal planning, I’m snacking healthy and I’m giving myself one day to eat fast food if I am so inclined to have it (Thursdays which are the kids gymnastics day and if we want to do a treat, we do. Tomorrow it falls on a day we take a day trip to see the shuttle launch, so I am giving myself a meal to eat out but bringing really healthy snacks to eat in between: almonds, pretzels, drinks, and cheese sticks. I’m also hitting the gym before we leave.)

For me it all has to be a part of the plan in order to feel like I am in control of my situation. I can’t live minute to minute in regard to health and weight-loss, it just doesn’t work for me.

I’d call the challenge a success because I made it through without gaining any more than I have over the holidays and now that my training kicked up a notch and my nutrition’s in check, I can focus on the next challenge with getting those holiday pounds off. No matter what, I’m still no where near my starting point and am still happy as a clam to be in the 130s. I have to keep that in perspective. I’ve never been in the 130s for this long, ever in my life. And oh, now I can do more than 20 pushups in a row.