I was bound and determined that I was going to run the entire Run the Hood 5k next weekend. It is something that I have never done before. I have walked more 5k’s than I can count. I have walk/ran some of those, but I have never ran an entire 5k. I figured I wasn’t getting any younger and it was now or never.
Eight weeks ago, I started the C25K program with many other sisters. It was hard right from the get go. I kept on pushing though. I made it through week 1, then week 2 and week 3. I got to week 4 and it was so hard. So hard that instead of moving on to week 5, I repeated week 4 again. When I finally moved on to week 5, I repeated that week too.
As I tried to progress through this training, I kept thinking that maybe I was not meant to run. I am rapidly approaching 57 years old. Maybe I am a little too “mature” for starting this at this point in my life. I mentioned something about it in a blog post and the voice of reason commented. Brooke said something that made perfect sense and I wondered why I wasn’t smart enough to figure it out on my own. She said “Just wanted to say – if running isn’t your thing don’t try to force it. you’ve got plenty of other things to keep you active. 🙂 As long as you can say you gave it your all – totally no shame in saying “no thanks”.
I can totally say that I gave it my all. Even when my knee or my ankle were crying for me to stop, I kept pushing. I am never going to get that runners high that people talk about. I am never going to love it. I’m never even going to like it. This was my third real try at running. I am totally okay with saying no thanks to running now.
On October 22 when nine of us head out to do the Run the Hood 5k, I will be walking. I will be happy to be out there and have no problem with the fact that I am walking and not running. You see I came into this thinking that I had to run this race. With a little help from Brooke, I saw that wasn’t going to happen. So, I conquered the need to reach an unreachable goal and realized that Brooke was right. As long as I am doing other things to keep me moving, it’s all good.
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