October 6, 2010 By thea
Evidently I smothered those 2 pounds in love and suffocated them because they have vacated the premises.
I can’t say that I miss them.
I worked really hard this week on not putting crap into my body. By no means was I perfect, but the good stuff far outweighed the bad stuff that was going in.
And you know what? I can tell that it’s making a difference in my workouts. The one day that I had a crap dinner, I had a crap run.
Coincidence? I think not.
So this week I’m continuing on making my body a priority…giving it the fuel it needs to bust out these workouts.
Less than 5 weeks to my first 10k, and I’m going to blow it out of the water.
March 27, 2010 By thea
Alrighty folks, truth time.
I’m not doing my 10k training. It’s on my to-do list every day. But I’m not doing it.
And you wanna know why?
I DON’T LIKE RUNNING!!!
There. I said it. Woo. I feel better. But only slightly. Because I mostly feel like a loser.
I wanted to like running. I really did. I tried. But I always look at it with dread. It causes me more stress than relieves it. Maybe I’m just a short distance runner and will never get beyond a 5k. I don’t know.
They say that you need to find something you love if you are going to stick with it. And I don’t love running.
But I’ve set goals. And I’ve signed up for races. And I’ve bought swimsuits for triathlons and that means running.
I feel like a big lump of goo. I’m not sure where to go from here.
I feel like a quitter. And I feel like I’m letting people down. And I feel like a quitter. And a whiner. And a quitter.
I’m not sure what I love. I can’t ever remember doing any physical activity and loving it.
So what do I do? Where do I go from here?
Ugh.
March 16, 2010 By thea
I was thinking that I was actually doing pretty good this past week.
And then I got my Daily Mile workout report on my e-mail. And it reminded me that I didn’t log a single workout last week.
I guess there’s that.
But I started anew with my 10k training program this morning. I went to the gym and found the weight machines I needed and then discovered some long lost muscles.
Who woulda thunk that my calves would be so weak?
And then there’s the dessert. There’s some leftover Valentine’s Day candy that has been calling my name from his place of honor in the middle of the counter. And the last of the Girl Scout cookies that have been around so long.
But they’re going to be around a little while longer. For this week’s Monday Project, I’m giving up candy/dessert for a week.
Which I will start today because I had already eaten cookies yesterday before I read the post about the Monday Project.
The end.
March 3, 2010 By thea
So I’m in this really strange place in my head (which ain’t saying much).
I’m down a 1/2 pound this week…but I totally don’t feel like I deserve to be. I have been eating like crap, CRAP for a while now, but I keep on staying within my weight range. It’s like I’ve given my body license to continue to eat like CRAP even though I’m within my range.
Not exactly the most healthy attitude in the world to have.
I should be eating like AWESOME and maintaining. That should be my goal. I shouldn’t be trying to see how much I can get away with.
Anyhoo, I’ve updated my goals for this challenge. They were pretty much the same as the last challenge, I just changed up my running goal a bit. Instead of running so many miles on specific days, I just need to meet my weekly mileage goal. I’ll be increasing the goal by 10% every week.
If I can keep up with that, I should have no problems with my 8k and 10k in a few months!
February 16, 2010 By thea
So, can I confess that I’ve been good?
Is that really confessing? I don’t know…confessing always has such a bad connotation.
I guess my biggest thing is that I’m off my running game. Between snow days and surgeries and blah blah blah, I just haven’t been running. It makes training for an 8k in April and a 10k in May kind of hard. Since, you know, I have to RUN those races.
I haven’t been counting my points either, but really I’m O.K. with that. I just think that I’ve been listening to my body more and really trying to pay attention to what goes into it…I don’t feel like I NEED to count points anymore. I’m still going to WW meetings at least once a month, but I’m kind of digging not counting. It’s a nice place to be!
So that’s all I got!
Don’t hate me because I’m mostly flawless.