not running enough – The Shrinking Jeans of Thea

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March 27, 2010 By thea

Alrighty folks, truth time.

I’m not doing my 10k training. It’s on my to-do list every day.  But I’m not doing it.

And you wanna know why?

I DON’T LIKE RUNNING!!!

There.  I said it.  Woo.  I feel better.  But only slightly. Because I mostly feel like a loser.

I wanted to like running.  I really did.  I tried.  But I always look at it with dread.  It causes me more stress than relieves it.  Maybe I’m just a short distance runner and will never get beyond a 5k.  I don’t know.

They say that you need to find something you love if  you are going to stick with it.  And I don’t love running.

But I’ve set goals.  And I’ve signed up for races.  And I’ve bought swimsuits for triathlons and that means running.

I feel like a big lump of goo.  I’m not sure where to go from here.

I feel like a quitter.  And I feel like I’m letting people down. And I feel like a quitter. And a whiner. And a quitter.

I’m not sure what I love.  I can’t ever remember doing any physical activity and loving it.

So what do I do? Where do I go from here?

Ugh.

February 16, 2010 By thea

So, can I confess that I’ve been good?

Is that really confessing?  I don’t know…confessing always has such a bad connotation.

I guess my biggest thing is that I’m off my running game.  Between snow days and surgeries and blah blah blah, I just haven’t been running.  It makes training for an 8k in April and a 10k in May kind of hard.  Since, you know, I have to RUN those races.

I haven’t been counting my points either, but really I’m O.K.  with that.  I just think that I’ve been listening to my body more and really trying to pay attention to what goes into it…I don’t feel like I NEED to count points anymore.  I’m still going to WW meetings at least once a month, but I’m kind of digging not counting.  It’s a nice place to be!

So that’s all I got!

Don’t hate me because I’m mostly flawless.

February 10, 2010 By thea

Oh my goodness, that challenge went fast!  I can’t believe that we are at the end already.

I weighed in at 155 this morning, which is down a pound from last week.  Woohoo!

The question is, how’d I do on my goals?

Goal 1: Maintain Weight Between 153 – 157 pounds — I did this one every week!  100% on this one, baby!

Goal 2: Run 3 days a week, at least 3 miles each time — I didn’t do nearly as well as I wanted to on this one.  I kept coming up with reasons excuses not to run.  I only did this 9 out of the 18 time.  50%…not that great.

Goal 3: No food after 9pm — I did pretty well with this one.  I met this goal 38 out of 42 days.  90% ain’t bad on this one and I definitely think it’s a habit.  I don’t even think about food at night anymore.

So, I’m thinking that means no yoga mat for me.  But that’s O.K.  I learned a lot this time around and I conquered 2 out of the 3 obstacles in front of me!

So how did you all do?  I can’t wait to hear!

February 2, 2010 By thea

I could tell you about all the specific things I’ve done this week, but they all really boil down into just two categories:

  1. I’ve eaten like crap for the past several days.
  2. I’ve let me running schedule slack off.

As a result of these two things, my body is revolting.  Let’s just say that I’ve been getting a lot of toilet reading done.

You’re welcome.

The bigger picture is that I won’t be reaching my goals.  I could try to justify rewarding myself by saying “I did my best” or something like that.  But the truth is, I didn’t try my best.

This isn’t a pity party.  I’m not upset and I’m not disappointed.  I’ve been down that road before and it just leads to more bad results.

I did what I did and I can’t change that.  What I need to focus on now is doing what i can do.

Weight Watchers put this up on Twitter yesterday: Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

Here’s to a meaningful life folks!