Posted by lisa on March 24, 2009
That would be the sound of my heart ready to burst out of my chest at 6:00am this morning.
Do people get up this early on a regular basis, because they want to? Or because they have to? I digress.
I was out of bed at 5:35am and my feet hit the pavement at 5:50am. I ran (if you could call it running, ha ha), walked, ran, walked, ran walked for FIFTY minutes.
Really, in the beginning, I thought my heart might explode. Yeah, I’m a “little” out of shape.
But I toned it down a bit and my heart did NOT burst of my chest, THANK GOODNESS.
It took a while for my body to warm up. However, my brain was in full gear from the get go.
I kept thinking to myself: Why?
- Why does it hurt so much?
- Why do my joints creak?
- Why did I continue to eat thing and drink things that I know I shouldn’t be eating and drinking?
- Why did I go back for seconds? Or worse, thirds?
- Why did I let my body get to this state of unhealthiness and overweight-ness?
Yes, I understand that I gave birth to my third child 6 months ago, BUT, BUT, BUT when I got pregnant with that child, I was at my most FIT that I have ever been in my entire life. I had worked so damn hard to get to that place- exercising four to five times a week for over a year and I felt so GOOD about myself. I understand why I stopped exercising when I got pregnant- I was so tired and mainly, so nauseated that I thought I might puke on the gym floor or pass out. Oh yeah, I broke a bone in my foot, too during that time. So yes, I understand HOW it happened- the stopping of exercising.
And now, I start up again. I am DETERMINED to shed this weight and I will. I will NOT give up.
I have done this twice before- first time was strictly through diet (Weight Watchers to be exact), second time was mainly through exercise, and this time, the third time around- it will be both diet and exercise.
You Sisters watch me, this weight will be gone before you know it. I promise.