True Confessions

Normally my true confessions posts consist mainly of embarrassing choices regarding food.

Today, I’m going a different direction.

I’m going to talk about my feelings. Buckle up. I’m pregnant and emotional and its not pretty.

In less than three weeks, unless baby decides to come early, I will be a mother of two.

And truthfully? I’m terrified. Admitting how scared I am makes me feel horrible. I mean, I should be all excited. But right now? I wouldn’t mind if she stayed in and cooked longer. Cause I have NO IDEA how I’m going to care for two children.

Will my first child resent me? Can I give them both enough attention? Will I ever get to exercise again? Or sleep?

Logically I know that I’ll just do it. Cause that’s what you do. You handle it.

But the uncertainty and the fear of failure keeps creeping up on me. Waking me at night ( or is that the urge to pee?).

I will do fine, I will be fine. But seriously? I hate the doubt and I hate the guilt I feel because of the doubt.

Being scared of a transition that so many seem to make seamlessly ( not just once, but sometimes several times over) is an emotion that is, frankly, ugly.

And while I know this isn’t directly weight loss or health related, I wanted to be real today. Expressing our fears, whatever they may be, is a good thing.

I know the Sisterhood is here for me. We’re all here for each other.

So that’s today’s confession. Join me if you’d like…with the traditional confession. Or tell us what scares you. Or what’s pissing you off. Whatever.

Get it off your chest.

And breathe with me.

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  • Lisa

    Oh Heather, every time I’ve had another kid, I’ve been scared of the transition, the change, the unknown. And truth be known, it’s always taken me a while to adjust after baby is born. In fact, I would venture to say that I might have been a tad bit crazy after each kid was born for like, maybe a year, lol!!!! Regardless, I always adjusted and made it work, cuz you just have to. Give yourself time and don’t be afraid to ask for help. Love you!!!

    Here are my confessions…….http://lisa.shrinkingjeans.net/2011/04/19/true-confessions-run-baby-run/

  • http://www.traveling-well.com Karena @ Traveling Well

    I know that feeling so, SO well. You’re right, you will handle it, because you’ll have to. But it doesn’t make the weeks leading up to that kind of responsibility any easier. :) Love you, girl!

    My confessions: http://www.traveling-well.com/2011/04/19/true-confessions-9/

  • http://www.whereverimaywander.com Lissa_ShrinkingJeans

    Girl, you are an awesome mother and that will not disappear with the birth of your baby girl. Plus, perfection is overrated. Just breathe and treasure every moment you have with them! And if you want, I will come stay with you and stalk your baby, k?

  • http://www.whereverimaywander.com Lissa_ShrinkingJeans

    Girl, you are an awesome mother and that will not disappear with the birth of your baby girl. Plus, perfection is overrated. Just breathe and treasure every moment you have with them! And if you want, I will come stay with you and stalk your baby, k?

  • Anonymous

    You are gonna be a great mother of 2…just like you are a great mother to 1. Just give yourself time to adjust and ask for help! There is NO shame in asking for help!

  • http://www.whereverimaywander.com Lissa_ShrinkingJeans

    Spilling out the nasty beans here: http://bit.ly/gzMyau

  • Anonymous

    I completely understand this feeling of panic. You will learn to adapt and you will be fine. When we found out we were having twins, I didn’t think I was ready to care for 1 baby, much less 2. But I did. People asked “wasn’t is so hard to have 2 babies” but the reality was that WAS our reality. We did what we had to do. We learned to adapt. We learned to schedule. We learned that sometimes we needed to ask for help. You will make it work and you will be a spectacular mom of 2.

    Here are my confessions…. http://www.livelaughrunbreathe.com/2011/04/true-confessions-im-drowning.html