I’m a little confused as to where to start this post. Since I’ve been on this journey for more than 4 years now, and had a baby in the midst of it, I guess I’ll look back to day 1 of my journey.
It all started way back in January of 2006, when saw a picture of myself holding my son at the Christmas tree farm (in November of ‘05). Here, I’ll just share it with you.
Yeah, great visual, huh? Well, after I got over the shock of that picture and the fact that I was outgrowing my size 16 pants, I decided to do something. It was the hardest decision and also the easiest. I knew I had to do something, but I was so scared because of how much I needed to lose. Sixty pounds just sounds scary and hard and damn near impossible.
Now on to the project. If I had waited 2 more year? ACK. I shudder to even think about it. At the rate I was gaining weight, I would have no doubt been well in to the mid-200s. I would have been miserable, and honestly, I think I might have felt completely helpless. If I had waited 2 years, I might not have ever done anything about it, and just resigned myself to the fact that I was meant to be fat. In actuality, if I had waited 2 years, I wouldn’t have done it because I would have been pregnant with my daughter 2 months later. Or maybe I wouldn’t have. Wow.
If I had waited 2 more years:
- I would not be where I am right now.
- I would not be running, or training for a 1/2 marathon
- The Sisterhood would not exist
- I wouldn’t know any of you. Probably. Wow. That makes me really sad.
- I would probably be too embarrassed to do much of anything.
- I would be setting a HORRIBLE example for my children. I would be leading them down the path to obesity and an unhealthy lifestyle.
- I would probably hate myself.
Gosh, I really need to pull myself back to the present, because living in the past is really hard. It makes me think of things I don’t even really want to consider. So hello! I’m back. It’s 2010 and I am healthy. I did not wait 2 years to start my journey. I ended up joining Weight Watchers online in January 2006, and here I am. I am 7 pounds from my goal weight. I am training for a 1/2 marathon. I am a happy wife, and proud mom to 2 amazing, healthy children. I am happy. I am strong. I am proud.
