July 14, 2010 By heather
No, the attitude is not meant for you all! It’s me. I’m kicking rocks.
I haven’t been here for a few weeks cause I’m mad/ashamed/frustrated. I wasn’t sure what to say.
But I am here today. I got to thinking that the point of this whole thing, The Sisterhood, is to be HONEST. And sometimes honesty is ugly and I have to admit that I’m just in a funk.
So there it is.
I actually lost this week. But it was only .2 pounds and it hardly counteracts the weight I’ve gained since this challenge began. Actually, since the beginning of May, I’ve been pretty much steadily gaining. While everyone else in my life WASN’T eating, out of stress and grief, there I was right behind them, eating their leftovers (okay, not really, but you get what I’m saying).
It’s an understatement to say I’m not sure what to do right now. I didn’t work out as much as I should have this last week, but I did work out some. And the week before, when I had a gain of two pounds? I had worked out, HARD, five times. And, I logged my food. So seriously, frustrating.
I’m kind of in the mindset that I’m not going to even be back down to my starting weight for this challenge by the end of this challenge. I’ve decided for the final week of Shrink into Summer, I’m just going to work on getting into a better headspace. Cause I have a feeling I’m not going to get GOOD results till my head is good.
You know?